KC's Diamonds

One of the things I struggle most with is trying to take care of my family when they are sick. Seeing as how I am the only way we make money to pay for our way of life, I'm pulled between having to go to work or calling in to take care of a sick wife or child. KC suffers from migraines that can knock her out all day. We've been married for almost five years, this is her fourth time being pregnant and she's been on bed rest every single time prior to this one. It's very rare that there is a weekend at our house that someone isn't sick or not feeling well. It hurts me because I'm the one who is always well. The stress of taking care of ill family members and having to work 40 plus hours outside the home has worn on me the past few years. Desires, ambitions and projects that need to be done around the house have been downgraded so routine maintenance can be performed on the minor things. It's made me question my contribution to my family as a husband and father. I see what I am not able to do rather than what I have been doing that has actually kept the family together. I pray often that I be the recipient of what ails my family so they will have no worries. It's gotten to the point where I just do not know what to do anymore.

I heard this song on the radio today. I probably heard it a few times before (because it's been out for a few months now), but never paid attention because I was lost in thought or waiting for Boom Boom Pow to start. But the song is called Her Diamonds, by Rob Thomas. He talked about the meaning and emotion behind the song. I believe he said that his wife has an immune disorder (my daughter has one as well) and there were times where he just didn't know what to do. He couldn't make her better and he can't take away the pain she feels. When I hear songs that remind me of my amazing wife, I can't help but get emotional. It's harder when I hear it while plugged into the headphones at work. I make sure that no one makes eye contact with me because they'll think that something is the matter or that I just finished a doobie.

Here is a video of the song and below that are the lyrics.

While it's not the version I head this morning, it still managed to illicit the same effect.

Do any of you dads or husbands, or just parents in general go through things similar to this?? Do you feel inadequate on how you can help or how helpless situations like this with your spouse or children can be?

Thanks for listening.

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